
I was once told by someone that I should hug my kids a lot because someday they wouldn't want to hug me anymore. I guess I was in denial that it would ever happen to me. Or maybe the time of rejection is something you can never be ready for. On Friday I experienced my first sad moment and it totally shook my world.
In a moment of frustration or maybe grouchiness, my sweet and not-so-little-anymore Carter pushed me away when I went to give him a hug. I have to say that it sent me into nearly the saddest hour of my life. I started thinking about my wonderful little boy growing up and started worrying that the days of hugging him were over. It came so quickly, and I am not ready for it.
To my relief, Carter approached me a couple hours later and told me he was disappointed about something. When asked what he was disappointed about, he told me he was sad that he pushed me away when I tried to hug him. I suddenly felt like a baby because the floodgate of tears let loose as I realized that maybe I can still have another year or so to hug my boy. Poor Carter just stood there confused. I tried to explain to him that I didn't want to stop hugging him yet -- someday he won't want to hug me, and I didn't want that day to come yet.
Anyway, I guess I have had my little wake-up call. I gotta squeeze in all the hugs I can for the next "however long I get." I love you Carter!
